share a thought : trust issues
as usual i am vegging out at home. not doing much but psycho-analysing my life via profound television series. so today i watched the grey’s anatomy episode that aired on thurs in the states. usually i hate meredith’s character, which is so whiny and self-absorbed. but for some reason she has become more likeable in the past few episodes as she deals with her post-derek phase.
and it made me think about something else that has been bugging me this past week. trust issues. not being able to give the trust that is needed in order for a relationship to progress. any relationship. especially when you want to be more than fair-weather friends. even when i think i care enough, i think i don’t because i care more about myself. a self-protecting mechanism to avoid hurt and unnecessary feelings.
giving out that trust opens you up. and what if they don’t like what they see?
ugh. this post sounds like a in-limbo-meredith post, like when she nearly drowned herself. double ugh.
